She signed to Mrs. Haffen to follow her into the drawing-room, and closed the
door when they had entered.
The char-woman, after the manner of her kind, stood with her arms folded in
her shawl. Unwinding the latter, she produced a small parcel wrapped in dirty
newspaper.
"I have something here that you might like to see, Miss Bart." She spoke the
name with an unpleasant emphasis, as though her knowing it made a part of her
reason for being there. To Lily the intonation sounded like a threat.
"You have found something belonging to me?" she asked, extending her
hand.
Mrs. Haffen drew back. "Well, if it comes to that, I guess it's mine as much
as anybody's," she returned.
Lily looked at her perplexedly. She was sure, now, that her visitor's manner
conveyed a threat; but, expert as she was in certain directions, there was
nothing in her experience to prepare her for the exact significance of the
present scene. She felt, however, that it must be ended as promptly as
possible.
"I don't understand; if this parcel is not mine, why have you asked for
me?"
The woman was unabashed by the question. She was evidently prepared to answer
it, but like all her class she had to go a long way back to make a beginning,
and it was only after a pause that she replied: "My husband was janitor to the
Benedick till the first of the month; since then he can't get nothing to
do."
Lily remained silent and she continued: "It wasn't no fault of our own,
neither: the agent had another man he wanted the place for, and we was put out,
bag and baggage, just to suit his fancy. I had a long sickness last winter, and
an operation that ate up all we'd put by; and it's hard for me and the children,
Haffen being so long out of a job."
After all, then, she had come only to ask Miss Bart to find a place for her
husband; or, more probably, to seek the young lady's intervention with Mrs.
Peniston. Lily had such an air of always getting what she wanted that she was
used to being appealed to as an intermediary, and, relieved of her vague
apprehension, she took refuge in the conventional formula.
"Oh, that we have, Miss, and it's on'y just beginning. If on'y we'd 'a got
another situation--but the agent, he's dead against us. It ain't no fault of
ours, neither, but---"
"Yes, Miss; I'm coming to that," she said. She paused again, with her eyes on
Lily, and then continued, in a tone of diffuse narrative: "When we was at the
Benedick I had charge of some of the gentlemen's rooms; leastways, I swep' 'em
out on Saturdays. Some of the gentlemen got the greatest sight of letters: I
never saw the like of it. Their waste-paper baskets 'd be fairly brimming, and
papers falling over on the floor. Maybe havin' so many is how they get so
careless. Some of 'em is worse than others. Mr. Selden, Mr. Lawrence Selden, he
was always one of the carefullest: burnt his letters in winter, and tore 'em in
little bits in summer. But sometimes he'd have so many he'd just bunch 'em
together, the way the others did, and tear the lot through once--like this."
While she spoke she had loosened the string from the parcel in her hand, and
now she drew forth a letter which she laid on the table between Miss Bart and
herself. As she had said, the letter was torn in two; but with a rapid gesture
she laid the torn edges together and smoothed out the page.
A wave of indignation swept over Lily. She felt herself in the presence of
something vile, as yet but dimly conjectured--the kind of vileness of which
people whispered, but which she had never thought of as touching her own life.
She drew back with a motion of disgust, but her withdrawal was checked by a
sudden discovery: under the glare of Mrs. Peniston's chandelier she had
recognized the hand-writing of the letter. It was a large disjointed hand, with
a flourish of masculinity which but slightly disguised its rambling weakness,
and the words, scrawled in heavy ink on pale-tinted notepaper, smote on Lily's
ear as though she had heard them spoken.
At first she did not grasp the full import of the situation. She understood
only that before her lay a letter written by Bertha Dorset, and addressed,
presumably, to Lawrence Selden. There was no date, but the blackness of the ink
proved the writing to be comparatively recent. The packet in Mrs. Haffen's hand
doubtless contained more letters of the same kind--a dozen, Lily conjectured
from its thickness. The letter before her was short, but its few words, which
had leapt into her brain before she was conscious of reading them, told a long
history--a history over which, for the last four years, the friends of the
writer had smiled and shrugged, viewing it merely as one among the countless
"good situations" of the mundane comedy. Now the other side presented itself to
Lily, the volcanic nether side of the surface over which conjecture and innuendo
glide so lightly till the first fissure turns their whisper to a shriek. Lily
knew that there is nothing society resents so much as having given its
protection to those who have not known how to profit by it: it is for having
betrayed its connivance that the body social punishes the offender who is found
out. And in this case there was no doubt of the issue. The code of Lily's world
decreed that a woman's husband should be the only judge of her conduct: she was
technically above suspicion while she had the shelter of his approval, or even
of his indifference. But with a man of George Dorset's temper there could be no
thought of condonation--the possessor of his wife's letters could overthrow with
a touch the whole structure of her existence. And into what hands Bertha
Dorset's secret had been delivered! For a moment the irony of the coincidence
tinged Lily's disgust with a confused sense of triumph. But the disgust
prevailed--all her instinctive resistances, of taste, of training, of blind
inherited scruples, rose against the other feeling. Her strongest sense was one
of personal contamination.
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