I live in the hope that you will come down to the old place at Christmas. I
won’t offend you more than I can help. At any rate he won’t be there. And if I
don’t see you there, where am I to see you? If I were you I would certainly not
go to Cheltenham. You are never happy there.
Alice had almost lost the sensation created by the former portion of Kate’s
letter by the fun of the latter, before she had quite made that sensation her
own. The picture of the Cambridgeshire Eden would have displeased her had she
dwelt upon it, and the allusion to the cream and toast would have had the very
opposite effect to that which Kate had intended. Perhaps Kate had felt this, and
had therefore merged it all in her stories about Mr Cheesacre. “I will go to
Cheltenham,” she said to herself. “He has recommended it. I shall never be his
wife — but, till we have parted altogether, I will show him that I think well of
his advice.” That same afternoon she told her father that she would go to Lady
Macleod’s at Cheltenham before the end of the month. She was, in truth, prompted
to this by a resolution, of which she was herself hardly conscious, that she
would not at this period of her life be in any way guided by her cousin. Having
made up her mind about Mr Grey, it was right that she should let her cousin know
her purpose; but she would never be driven to confess to herself that Kate had
influenced her in the matter. She would go to Cheltenham. Lady Macleod would no
doubt vex her by hourly solicitations that the match might be renewed; but, if
she knew herself, she had strength to withstand Lady Macleod.
She received one letter from Mr Grey before the time came for her departure,
and she answered it, telling him of her intention — telling him also that she
now felt herself bound to explain to her father her present position. “I tell
you this,” she said, “in consequence of what you said to me on the matter. My
father will know it tomorrow, and on the following morning I shall start for
Cheltenham. I have heard from Lady Macleod and she expects me.”
On the following morning she did tell her father, standing by him as he sat
at his breakfast. “What!” said he, putting down his teacup and looking up into
her face; “What! not marry John Grey!”
“No — there has been no quarrel. By degrees I have learned to feel that I
should not make him happy as his wife.”
“It’s d — d nonsense,” said Mr Vavasor. Now such an expression as this from
him, addressed to his daughter, showed that he was very deeply moved.
“But it is. I never heard such trash in my life. If he comes to me I shall
tell him so. Not make him happy! Why can’t you make him happy?”
“And a man of honour, and with good means, and with all that knowledge and
reading which you profess to like. Look here, Alice; I am not going to
interfere, nor shall I attempt to make you marry anyone. You are your own
mistress as far as that is concerned. But I do hope, for your sake and for mine
— I do hope that there is nothing again between you and your cousin.”
“I did not like your going abroad with him, though I didn’t choose to
interrupt your plan by saying so. But if there were anything of that kind going
on, I should be bound to tell you that your cousin’s position at present is not
a good one. Men do not speak well of him.”
“There is nothing between us, papa; but if there were, men speaking ill of
him would not deter me.”
“And men speaking well of Mr Grey will not do the other thing. I know very
well that women can be obstinate.”
“I suppose not. Well — I can’t say anything more. You are your own mistress,
and your fortune is in your own keeping. I can’t make you marry John Grey. I
think you very foolish, and if he comes to me I shall tell him so. You are going
down to Cheltenham, are you?”
“Very well. I’d sooner it should be you than me; that’s all I can say.” Then
he took up his newspaper, thereby showing that he had nothing further to say on
the matter, and Alice left him alone.
The whole thing was so vexatious that even Mr Vavasor was disturbed by it. As
it was not term time he had no signing to do in Chancery Lane, and could not,
therefore, bury his unhappiness in his daily labour — or rather in his labour
that was by no means daily. So he sat at home till four o’clock, expressing to
himself in various phrases his wonder that “any man alive should ever rear a
daughter.” And when he got to his club the waiters found him quite unmanageable
about his dinner, which he ate alone, rejecting all propositions of
companionship. But later in the evening he regained his composure over a glass
of whiskey-toddy and a cigar. “She’s got her own money,” he said to himself,
“and what does it matter? I don’t suppose she’ll marry her cousin. I don’t think
she’s fool enough for that. And after all she’ll probably make it up again with
John Grey.” And in this way he determined that he might let this annoyance run
off him, and that he need not as a father take the trouble of any
interference.
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